in the middle of the night.
I love the end of pregnancy insomnia. NOT.
Tonight its part that, and part total cold. Stinks.
Im having wicked dreams of needles puncturing my belly.
Its frieking me out.
People do amnio's every day but I wish I weren't on that list.
My kidneys have some heavy weight on them, Im thankfull its not hardcore pain.
Tonight though trully its little things.
Like hot flashes from a fever.
A nose I can't breath out of.
Itchy ears.
And some scary new symptoms that they have continued to say but, as long as you don't have "this" right.... and now suddenly its oh so right there smacking me in the face, and all I can think, is so what does this mean...
Its easy to say I have a lot on my heart.
Like little girls that have hard days
and make me feel like a failure as a mom
Cause my head wants to explode and she is still whinning.
I changed my name today to Princess Consuela, she has already worn out mom at not even 1 1/2.
So when she can say that she can yell for me, until then shhhhhhhh........
Yeah stuff on my heart
And on my mind.
And why are there never kleenex when you need them?
Thank you for your prayers.
Thanks for letting me be real.
Field o’ Mustard. Orange County Photographer
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If only there was a possible way I could take away even an ounce of the pain, I so totally would for you. These things in life are the hardest to undertand...especially when the people who are the most beautifully spirited, loving and big hearted are the ones who endure it. I guess it is a test of fatih to the Lord. I guess it is a trial run to see how much he means to you. Well, you my dear are strong, real, beautiful and you have Jesus right there by your side, wether it be through your faith, our prayers or yours...I just know it and we will ALL continue to pray for the two of you. Praying so hard that he wraps his healing hands around you and lifting you up from the pain, the heavy heart, the cold, the itching...Love you friend and you are always on my mind.
Just keep reminding yourself "soon soon soon"!! Hang in there, mama!
Leslie, we are praying praying praying for you! I'm so sorry that things are so hard for you right now. If there was even one little thing that I could do to help relive some of your suffering, I would do it in a heartbeat. Hang in there dear. Only a few more weeks to go.
Love and hugs.
Horrible to know that you are having such a hard time. I tried to send you en email today, but it bounced back (your inbox is very full).
But I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking and praying for you alot this week.
It seems almost silly as we have never met and I live oh so many miles from you but by just logging onto your blog you have inspired and encouraged me many times.Thank you for that. Thank you for being you and thank you for being real.
So many continued prayers for the safe arrival of little Cade and for your health are coming to you aaaalll the way from Australia. May you continue to stand firm in the promises that God has for you and see your miracle baby boy soon.
Trust in your saviour draw your strength from him for we seriously can't do it any other way.
much love Katie x
praying for you!
Love you, dear friend. And always praying, praying, praying for you. I wish we could have that playdate and cup of tea today, but I'll imagine that we can. Feel better!
Sending you tons of prayers daily my friend. Hang in there!
Hugs & Blessings!
oh leslie. i am right there with jacy, wishing i could take the pain for you...even just the slightest bit of it. praying that you are showered with the reality of His mercies each and every moment. hang in there...
I love you so much my dear friend! And I also wish that I do something, anything to take away your pain and worries and fears and insomnia...everything. I know that praying is the most powerful and best thing I can do, but I want so much to do more. To go over to your house and bring you treats and take Rylan home for the afternoon so that you can have some rest. Or at least hang out with you so that you are not dealing with a toddler alone. Praying that today is a peaceful and happy one for you and that God continues to keep my sweet friend and her sweet baby safe. I love you!
I am so sorry that you are having to deal with so much during a time that should be joyous and happy. I know though that God is strengthening you through this, and that He will walk you through it. You have so many people who love and care for you, and we are all praying for you and Cade. And you are not a failure as a mom. Just by reading your blogs I can tell how much you love your children, and they are so lucky to have you as a parent.
Dear Leaslie - Know that Heaven is being flooded with prayers on your behalf as you struggle through these recent issues. Hoping you feel ever so encoruaged and uplifted today as you have been such an encouragement and uplifter to MANY!
Praying praying...
Leslie we have been thinking of you often! And sending up many prayers for your peace and comfort right now. I can only imagine the pain you are going through. :( It won't be long hon...and this whole experience is making you stronger and I believe God is molding you for greater things.
2 Corinthians 4:16-17
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.
We love you girl.
God doesn't give us more than we can't handle...and you seem like you're handling this with a ton of grace and positivity...so you go girl!
Leslie,
I'm sorry you're going through so much at this time when it should be a happy time.
Endure to the end Leslie, and the Lord will bless you. He loves you and knows your pain. He won't give you more than you can handle. Your are strong, and it looks like from all the comments here on your post, that you are well loved. Keep your head up. I am praying for you and your family.
I'm sorry, I had one more thing to add. I had to laugh at your name change for the day. My mother had 6children, my father worked a lot, so she raised us much of the time. I remember her saying on days she just couldn't handle hearing "mom" one more time, she would scream, "kids, call me Agnes!" and we did :)
Did I mention the fact that I LOVE that you changed your name to Princess Consuela?! You're too much girl! I'm going to have to try that one, except I think I'll have to try something with an extended title and a super difficult name to pronounce, any suggestions? LOL!!
Hugs & Blessings!
Even the best moms, like you, have bad days. You ARE NOT a failure nor should you have felt like one. You carry a heavy burden and still the responsiblity of a small one and it's a lot to handle and balance. You are a super mom, one of the best, from where I stand! Hugs and prayers and peace!
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